With this photographic sculpture, I wanted to represent the difficulties I had this past year as a human being to connect with other humans.
Since a few months, it seems that I have a hard time to be decent human being capable of empathy. Between my hormone replacement therapy and ECAL, I found myse

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lf being over self-centered which is something I never was before and it came as a choc when the people around me told me this.
This made me question my own personality. How could I not see it? How deep in my own thoughts was I so that I hurt the people I love the most?
Often I know that I hide behind false appearances, that I play a role to be able to navigate life without getting too much involved with my feelings. But this year, I did the opposite. I put myself out there, between my projects here at ECAL and more generally in life. Sadly I think I over compensated all these years I spent not being me and I find myself lost in the middle of two opposites that I incarnate. Sorry if this is hard to follow, but what you have to understand from this is that I’m currently lost.
To translate that into the sculpture, I applied this collage technique that fits my usual process and worked with a lot of different materials to represent all these aspects that impacted me lately. I used a wood panel with latex, paint and flour to stick my face and hands casts together. I managed to recreate this kind of weird organic texture that could remind us of a body, of flesh. For the photographic elements, I scanned some parts of my body that I edited, then printed on fabric to add them to the sculpture, like a skin on the flesh.
Since I want this work not to be too dramatic, I decided to wrap the sculpture with plastic foil to represent some kind of placenta that would make me born again, as a better person. I’m being very optimistic here, applying this fake it til you make it concept.
When we see the work in video it has this 3D esthetics even if it’s analog, and I wanted to play with this strange aspect.
For real life presentation, the sculpture is placed in a box with dripping organic holes. This box stands for the roles I play in my life as a protection between my true self and others. The holes are like a peep show, a glimpse to my personality represented by the sculpture as a messy patchwork.

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